The
following morning by the light of the dying fire, Blue again watched
his captive sleep. She looked like a contented child, her long,
dark lashes closed over her emerald eyes.
Each
time he looked at her he wanted to scoop her into his arms and
kiss the breath out of her. He wanted to taste her lips and feel
her body pressed close to his. Although it was his right by Lakota
law to take her as he wanted, he wouldn't force himself on her.
Couldn't. Another way he was so different from those he lived
with, he berated himself.
He
gazed at her and imagined her giving herself to him willingly.
His mind drifted to a picture of her mouth curled in laughter,
of her eyes bright with joy, her heart filled with love. Children,
running happily about, finished the picture. He sighed. Would
he ever be completely fulfilled with a wife and children? Would
he ever know true happiness? His
vision drifted back to the delicate creature nestled in the furs
across from him.
He
froze. Her eyes were open and she was staring back at him.
"Daydreaming?"
"Thinking."
"About
what?"
"Nothing
of importance." He pushed himself up from the pallet. "Hungry?
You've slept well into the morning.
"Yes,
some." Her perusal of him never wavered.
He
turned his back, unnerved by her continued examination. It reminded
him of another girl and how she'd led him down a fool's path.
Would this slip of a girl do the same thing?
Angrily, he dished out gruel and handed her the bowl.
She
sat up and dipped her fingers into the mixture, but continued
to gaze at him as they slid in and out of her mouth. Blue stared
back, captured by her face. By her whole being.
"Are
you ready to tell me your name?"
She
finished the gruel and put the bowl aside. She licked the last
of the food from her fingers and nodded.
"Since
it appears I may be here a while, I suppose it will do no harm."
Blue didn't miss the condescending tone in her voice. "My name
is Amy Ross. And yours?"
"Blue
Fox with Two Hearts."
"Hmm,
Blue Fox with Two Hearts. Two hearts," she repeated. "A half-breed."
Her words sounded dirty and cold.
"Yes,
a half-breed," he snarled back.
"But
why are you here? You've obviously lived with civilized people,
you know our language perfectly."
"I'm
here because of people like you, who judge me because of what
I am, not because of what's inside me. You said it the other day.
I don't belong here. I've never belonged anywhere." His words
tasted bitter in his mouth and he felt he'd said too much.
He
looked into her face and saw it had softened.
"Feeling
sorry for the little breed?" he spat.
"No,
I don't," Amy answered. "You feel sorry enough for yourself for
the both of us."