When
at last the sun rose and she opened her eyes, the dark-haired
stranger with the vivid green eyes and fast hands was calmly going
through her saddlebags. His back turned to her, he didn't seem
to care if she knew he was rummaging through her possessions.
Lainie's
first waking thought was that she was still asleep and this was
a nightmare, because the man's reproving eyes had haunted her
sleep, making her twist and turn endlessly. She couldn't set aside
the feelings of guilt either. She had pushed the limits and now
it seemed she would pay the price.
In
her dreams, she had tried to get closer to the handsome stranger,
hoping he might be that miracle from God. She hoped he would be
the one man who would guard her at night and ride beside her during
the day. Each time she was reminded of a man just like her brothers.
But each time she was close enough to talk to him, she saw him
don a mask as if hiding from her, and then he would turn his back
and walk away leaving her alone and more vulnerable than she'd
ever felt before.
She
knew he was nothing like her brothers. He was a man who would
take what he wanted and leave her to live with the shame.
Now
that Lainie was awake, the last thing she wanted was to get closer
to the dangerous man with the vivid green eyes. She reminded herself
there were few men on this earth a woman could trust. Trying for
subtlety, she began to ease her hand toward the dirk she had strapped
to her leg. Since the day Bertram attacked her, she had never
slept without the dirk--never been without a weapon--never forgotten
the horror of that day.
Through
shuttered lashes, and breath held tight in her lungs, Lainie studied
the early morning intruder. She tried to keep the shudders sweeping
down her spine at bay as well as the trembling of her hands. She
steadied her nerves and fought to breathe slowly, pretending sleep.
She didn't shift her position in any noticeable way. She didn't
want the man with the lightning fast hands who was so calmly rummaging
through her possessions to know she was awake. She remembered
all too well the deadly violence he could unleash so easily and
so very quickly.